Soluble

Posts tagged modeling industry

So, I think I am going to start posting my poems here. 

Because that is really what I want to do with my life. Besides act. But that could be my quarter life crisis talking. 

I wasted so many opportunities. When I lived in NYC, I was approached by 4 different modeling agents. But I didn’t do it. Because I wanted to be more than a pretty face.

I did one runway show, when I was 14, and the hyper-sexualized nature of the industry freaked me out beyond repair. My breasts weren’t even fully developed yet- Calvin Klein can go screw himself, he is not putting me in a corset. Is what I more or less thought in the make-up chair. 

Now I am poor, with massive amounts of student loan debt.

And I am trying the modeling thing again. Ironic. Except I am overweight, at a size 6, and too old. 

…

I hate my blogging/writing jobs… except for the one that doesn’t pay me. 

Yes, I am depressed. I have been depressed since puberty, thank you very much.